issue 14: jan 2017, Narratives, Sula Journals
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Sula Journals: Oyinda | III

1st January 2017

Our relationship is weird but it’s good because I tell you the truth about my beliefs and how I avoid calling you father but feel guilty if I call you mother because in my opinion you’re genderless, because then neither of the gender binary has any standing in terms of being the most powerful. I tell you how my body belongs to me, not you, but hopefully my soul’s still holy enough to have an audience with you. That I’ll do as I want, but that I promise my intentions will always be good. That sex isn’t limited to marriage because to be frank, no matter what the people of  Jesus’s time predicted, true love is a lie and that lifetime partner doesn’t exist. They’ll love you and leave you, so really what am I waiting for. That pleasure isn’t sin but I’ll try and respect the sanctity of sex. That I’ll smoke, but only when nothing else helps. That I’ll love my parents eternally, and I’ll provide for them when they’re old and grey because the government is sucky and they’re my blood and you trusted them with my life and it’s okay that we disagree because different generations have a tendency to clash. That I’ll probably get a couple more tattoos but not out of recklessness, I’ll think long and hard about the message I’m trying to convey to myself and to others.

Out of curiosity, the bible said the “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.”. The Word is a reference to the bible but I’m stuck because the bible is man’s interpretation of your teachings a long long time ago. And that confuses me, because the bible is their own truth created in a time and place that bears little resemblance to now, and years down the line, we’re all still teaching obedience to the Word but it’s starting to feel like a warped version of blindness to me. diary-2

(image above inspired by @colourme.blu)



Oyinda is a very very confused teenage girl, and like most people spends almost every waking moment trying to figure things out. Born in Nigeria but resides in London, she’s trying to become herself without shunning any part of her identity. To Oyinda, the ultimate goal in her life is to be seen as an equal counterpart universally, to be accepted for who she is and all her passions. You can find her on instagram and tumblr.

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